My Life

I was watching my nephew's photos and felt little sad. I'm not part of that family. I'm not part of their celebrations/sorrows/misery. There are whole bunch of people who are called my family and yet I'm too far from them. Am I regretting for taking a decision to stay away? Not really. If I compare everything, this pain is nothing. Much of my opinions were changed after meeting a German friend whose childhood was in Orphanage. Every culture has got it's own advantages and drawbacks. Yes, statistics say that divorce rate is very low in India comparing to developed countries. It doesn't mean that there are more happy families. In my opinion, the first priority is to be given to one's own happiness. In that process, happy families are born and so happy nations. Quest for happiness means, changing partners? No. Then how?  Changing partners gives happiness is a wrong assumption. In that case, where to stop with which one? I'm only telling that there is

(Written on 29th February, 2012) February has gone already. Very soon the time will come for me to pack my bags one more time rightly (Need to pull out my packing checklist soon). Been to the small mountain to see the Sun-set. It always give me a sense of freedom when ever I'm on the top of the mountains in the middle of jungle. It appears that there is nothing is needed to be happy or to live a peaceful life. The life ahead seems to be more interesting. But, why not now? What is stopping? Do I feel the need of little more money? Felling insecure? I was going back to my room after contemplating on various things and heard some music instruments being played. My feet just followed the sound and reached to one of my Indonesian colleague's room. Sat for a while singing Sa Ri Ga Ma Pa Da Ni Sa with the keyboard. I missed harmonium (An Indian musical instrument) a lot. Harmonium is the next thing I'm going to buy in India. I love it. I can't post pone it any more.

Chieko Akari I was asked this question recently. Now, I'm answering. But, the person who asked this question doesn't exist any more. It was Chieko Akari who asked me this question. She left this world on Aug-15th all of sudden due to brain hemorrhage. I'm sure that the inspiration she gave will last for ever. Her dedication and commitment during Kdham (We did diploma in yoga together) will never be forgotten. I still remember the way she recited mantras. She was the best. I felt so guilty at the beginning looking at my performance. After thinking about it again and again it gave me a lot of inspiration. Why can't I, when a Japanese girl could learn sanskrit mantras. Definitely "Can do attitude". I've asked her to recite mantras many times to record. But, she was shy. Dear Chieko, My world which I want to create and live is self sustainable world, a money-less world, a spiritual world. To make it more clear, I want to live in a farm using solar energy

Very often, I hear this from my western colleagues and feel awkward. Some people even talk about their Mama's Ex Boy Friends. It's like this in western culture: (Wife to Husband) Honey! Yours kids and my kids are fighting with our kids. Whereas, 3 to 4 generations are living together in India. For example in my family there are 4 generations together. I'm always away being an exceptional (May be some people would be calling me westerner by thoughts). If I have to respond to it, I'd say that I'm neither easterner nor westerner. I'm simply in pursuit of my own happiness. Recently, some people were saying that how difficult it would be to live that many people together. Stating that there are so many different needs from newly married couple to old people. Yes, I understood their point. However, this is one side of the coin. The another side is many folds beautiful and complete. May be it seems sentimental to western friends who have grown up with step

Finished reading The Bhagavad Git (Hindu's Holy Book) with commentary writtedn by Swami Sivananda. It was a long awaited wish. Finally, could accomplish. Today, I had to wait for more than an hour for the bus. I went to the church which was barely filled with people, took out my Bhagavad Gita and started reading the last chapter (18th). I was hesitent to do that at the begining. Later on didn't worry about anything. If anyone asks me I thought of asking them to read the same lines where I was reading it was about renunciation. It was good to have that freedom to read what I wished even being in Church. Very soon, I'm going to understand the Church more better than ever as the book I'm going to read is nothing but the Bible. There was conflict of beliefs while reading the Gita rather I should say I couldn't understand more than what I've understood. Surely, I'll come back to it one day. Swami Sivananda was seen in his commentary all along.

There was a good couple staying in the resort and attending yoga regularly who have checked out (They could check out but they can't leave from my memories) recently. They offered me tips mentioning it is a multi cultural gift (in his own terms). I'll mention why it is a multi cultural gift later. It was reminding me my first experience a year and a half ago. I politely refused a guest who was offering me money after yoga session. I told him "It's so nice of you that you are offering money. It's my duty and I'm already being paid for this." Later on, I understood the culture of the hotel and realized that people may not feel so comfortable when their tips are refused. It was busy time when I started working here. Started accepting monetary appreciation from the guests. I was happy. Because, I could leave the job and go back to my farm quicker than I've planned. However, I didn't take too long to understand that it only happens in festival seas

I was wondering if I can get a chance to work in House Keeping department cleaning rooms (Villas). I didn't know whom to speak and where to go with that wish. I got an answer one day on our notice board through "One Day Discovery Experience" program. Signed up very excitingly without any delay.  However, it took nearly 5 months for our HR to put this into reality. So what? Finally the day has come and I've worked one full day making beds and cleaning rooms. In House Keeping Uniform I was shadowing one of the senior room attendants who was nice. He was fasting for his Ramadhan (In India we call it Roja) and that made me to feel sorry for him. It was not an easy task to do while fasting without water. I was in search of the experience I've got while cleaning rooms in BSY (Bihar School of Yoga). I found it no where. It took me whole day to realise the difference. Many times in BSY, the lady monk who was in charge of rooms found dust even after cleaning fo

Always visualized being in a bus drive which is going next to the ocean. Yeah, it has been reality many times since I've come to Seychelles. Today, I happened to spend some time in one of the bus stops next to the ocean. I could sit there for hours. The ocean other side of the road. Sometimes, buses and some other vehicles passed quickly. Simply enjoy that waiting time always. People coming and going. Everybody around is thinking without talking to each other. Today, most of the people who were waiting for the bus were horizontally challenged. It’s always a meaningless thing for me to go through all the pain of having more kilos on the body.  What to do?  Everybody has their own priorities.